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River - mentality
02:21
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Breathe in breathe out
Deep breath slow down
Hold on for a moment
And dream out loud
I put so much stress on myself
To be like somebody else
Iām getting so overwhelmed
Sometimes I just wanna yell
Ooooooh
How do I find out?
Who I am, who Iāll be
Lately Iāve been missing the simplicity
Of it all, I canāt sleep
Wish I could get back to that mentality
Of carefree, you and me
Living without worrying about how Iām perceived
Calm down let go
Be patient, go slow
Thereās no (thereās no) due dates (due dates)
You donāt have to know
You put so much stress on yourself
To be like somebody else
Youāre getting so overwhelmed
Donāt you just wanna yell
Ooooooh
How do we find out?
Who we are, who weāll be
Havenāt you been missing the simplicity (the simplicity)
Of it all (of it all) canāt sleep (canāt sleep)
Wish we could get back to that mentality
Of carefree, you and me,
Living without worrying about how weāre perceived
Oh living without worrying about how weāre perceived
Oh doesnāt it just make you it just makes me wanna scream
Oh living without worrying about how weāre perceived
Oh doesnāt it just make you it just makes me wanna scream
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2. |
AJ - New Normal
04:34
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She isnāt anything I planned
But I still asked to hold their hand
In the rain in California
My palms were sweaty when I thought
Of preacherās kids and guilt of god
Telling me that Iām not normal
My resentmentās off the charts and my confusionās in the dark
One more year and I wonāt have to play this part
I will not be that kind of girl
My lines are straight my hair is curled
My favorite color will be pink Iāll have a boy when Iām 18
Iād never fathom all these thoughts
My personality is gone
But then they picked me up and put me down (and put me down)
Before them I was lost but now Iām found
And I found oh I found
My new normal
My new normal
Ignoring every social cue
Starting off with something new
And the freedom to be who I am
Can finally like whatās in the mirror
No longer live like Iām in fear
Can finally know my worth and take a stand
Thriving with a brand new start
And in a place that loves my heart
And Iām so happy I donāt have to play that part
I will not be that kind of girl
Whose lines are straight and hair is curled
My favorite color could be pink donāt care if Iāll have a boy when Iām 18
I finally fathomed all these thoughts
My personalityās not gone
Because they picked me up and put me down (because they put me down)
Before them I was lost but now Iām found
And I found oh I found
My new normal
My new normal
My new normal
My new normal
My new normal
She isnāt anything I planned
But I still asked to hold their hand
In the rain in California
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3. |
Michael Stolar - Resist
03:17
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Took me a while
To feel this good in my own skin
Years of suppression turned into oppression
Emotional cage I was locked in
Now Iām ready to smile
At least when Iām looking at you boy
My imagination makes fake situations
But I can tell youāre acting coy
And itās easy to say but itās harder to do
Thatās always the way that it is with the truth
Gotten through the tough part you can do it too
But I know you want to resist
You say ignorance is bliss
But you donāt need to know it all
Donāt need to know a thing
We can experiment
Call it summer fling
Give me a chance and
Iāll give you my everything
I bet you think about our kiss
You donāt have to resist, no
You donāt have to know what this is, no
You donāt have to resist
Oh oooh donāt resist it, no
Took you a while
To realize you had these feelings
We could be together it could be forever
But your heart is still barely healing
Cuz youāre still in denial
Wish there was a way I could show you
The world we could live in is good with you in it
One day I hope you can break through
Cuz itās easy to say but itās harder to do
Thatās always the way that it is with the truth and I know, and I know youāll get through it too
But I know you want to resist
You say ignorance is bliss
But you donāt need to know it all
Donāt need to know a thing
We can experiment
Call it summer fling
Give me a chance and
Iāll give you my everything
I bet you think about our kiss
You donāt have to resist, no
You donāt have to know what this is, no
You donāt have to resist
You donāt need to hide it
You donāt need to hide it
You donāt need to fight it
You donāt need to fight it
No you donāt need to hide it
You donāt need to hide it
Cuz Iāll be right beside ya
Cuz I know you want to resist
You say ignorance is bliss
But you donāt need to know it all
Donāt need to know a thing
We can experiment
Call it summer fling
Give me a chance and
Iāll give you my everything
I bet you think about our kiss
You donāt have to resist, no
You donāt have to know what this is, no
You donāt have to resist
I know you wanna resist
I know you wanna
I, I know you think of our kiss
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Kai
[that's like the only stereotype for cancers, is that they cry]
You called me up
To say you missed me
I hate it when you get like this
Always makes me cry
I changed your name in my phone
And I thought that'd be the last time
That I cried over something
That wasn't for me
Lets not lie
You were never really good for me
[i just- I don't think I miss her anymore]
I'm done making excuses for you
Next time you call I won't try and see it through
No, I didn't trust you
I lied to love you
Christian:
You called my bluff
You're right, I lied right straight through my teeth
guess I'm stuck
Without you next to me
I know I showed you something
That wasn't real
I thought that I wasn't cool enough
Wasn't good enough for you
I tried to fix me
I tried and tried
But you I ended up hurting
Kai and Christian:
I'm done making excuses for you
Next time you call I won't try and see it through, no
I didn't trust you
I lied to love you
Kai:
Now I'll be honest
To move on
Itās honestly overdue, love
You'll never choose me
Isn't that right?
No, there's no promise
To come through on
Just promise me you'll stay in touch when we move on
I lied to love you and I love to be right
I never needed you
Did I?
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5. |
Katelyn Handy - CTR
03:20
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Private school girl grew up in religion
Every time she talked nobody listened
Always raised her hand and had something to say
Student government a real go getter
Teacherās pet, oldest child, no room for error
The real her hidden, covered, and tucked away
Life all planned out
Whatās your plan now?
Traded in my knee length skirt for a suit
Traded in my scriptures for gay YouTube
Iām not going back, I know who I am, Iām not confused
I traded in my cross for a pronoun pin
Traded in church for a "life of sin"
Iām choosing the right for the person Iāve turned into
Private school girl performs at Pride
Left the church and the old her behind
Found a group of people to call her family
Unlearned all the judgement she was taught
Decorated with all the rainbows she bought
Look what happens when youāre finally free
Got my plan now
Iāll show you how
I traded in my knee length skirt for a suit
Traded in my scriptures for gay YouTube
Iām not going back, I know who I am, Iām not confused (Iām not confused)
I traded in my cross for a pronoun pin
Traded in church for a "life of sin"
Iām choosing the right for the person Iāve turned into
I felt so alone, nothing was home, just trying to get by
Darkness was creeping in took the light right out my eyes
No longer alone, I found my home, it was inside
If your story sounds like mine, know that you have nothing to hide
I traded in my knee length skirt for a suit
Traded in my scriptures for gay YouTube
Iām not going back, I know who I am, Iām not confused (Iām not confused)
I traded in my cross for a pronoun pin
Traded in church for a "life of sin"
Iām choosing the right for the person Iāve turned into
Oooh
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6. |
Daniel Cruz - Who I Am
04:00
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You have put me down for far too long
Come morning sun and Iāll be gone
You can take your words and tie them around my neck so I wonāt forget how
You did me wrong
You think that you can read me
Think youāve got the best of me, no
You tore me
You hurt me but I
I know who I am
And itās not what they had planned but they
Still donāt understand
Seems to me the judgement just gets worse
They cover their eyes, block out the words
And everyone around me expects me to
Be like them but what they forget is
Their words cause hurt
But donāt you let them scare you
They canāt say what you think of you
Come through, let them see your light
I know who I am
And itās not what they had planned but they
Still donāt understand no
My blood is falling from their hands
And itās not what they had planned but they
Still donāt understand
Is this for better or for worse?
Loving him isnāt a curse, loving him isnāt a curse no
I will write and scream the words
Loving him isnāt a curse, loving him isnāt a curse
I know who I am
And itās not what they had planned but they
Still donāt understand
My blood is falling from their hands
And itās not what they had planned but they
Still donāt understand
Whoah
Ohhhh
I know who I am
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Daniel:
Prepare to meet your match, baddest of the batch
You aināt got nothing on me, you aint got my sleek and shine
Oh Iām not what you thought? You seem kinda distraught
Not from your generation, itās my turn to live my prime
Living oh so free, hair blowing with the breeze
You got issues with who? āCause that sure as hell aināt me
Shake it from side to side, keep this ponytail up high
I pull up with no script, never stutter never lie
And if youāre here with me
And if youāre feeling me
Just put your worries away
Long hair vibes everyday
And if youāre here with me
And if youāre feeling me
Just put your worries away
Long hair vibes everyday
AJ:
Grow my hair out to like three feet
I donāt really care ācause no one knows me
Go ahead and stare, I know what I want and what I want is long hair
Daniel:
And if youāre here with me
AJ:
(All I want is long hair)
Daniel:
And if youāre feeling me
Just put your worries away
Long hair vibes everyday
And if youāre here with me
And if youāre feeling me
Just put your worries away
Long hair vibes everyday
I wanna be the best of the best, impress
Wanna see the way they turn their heads when I dress up
They looking at me from the ground cause Iām up
You know Iām never coming down
Long hair donāt care, look at how it flows in the summer hot air
Yeah Iām feeling fine and it doesnāt kill my vibe when you speak your vile lies
Get your hair as long as mine
Iām living oh so free, hair blowing with the breeze
You got issues with who? āCause that sure as hell aināt me
Shake it from side to side, keep this ponytail up high
I pull up with no script, never stutter never lie
Iām living oh so free, hair blowing with the breeze
You got issues with who? āCause that sure as hell aināt me
Shake it from side to side, keep this ponytail up high
I pull up with no script, never stutter never lie
AJ:
Mr. or a Mrs. doesnāt matter
The way you look or dress isnāt a factor
Go ahead and stare, I know what I want and what I want is long hair
AJ:
Long hair
Daniel:
And if youāre here with me
AJ:
Hair
Daniel:
And if youāre feeling me
AJ:
Long hair
Daniel:
Just put your worries away
Long hair vibes everyday
AJ:
Long hair
Daniel:
And if youāre here with me
AJ:
I want long hair
Daniel:
And if youāre feeling me
Just put your worries away
AJ:
Long hair
Daniel:
Long hair vibes everyday
AJ:
Long hair
Long hair
Long hair
Long hair
Long hair
Mmmmm
Long hair
Long hair
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When I was young
I had a pink plastic crown
I played pretend
Iād close my eyes and spin around
In my head
A princess singing melodies and dancing under cherry trees
Oh, but Disney on repeat, they werenāt meant for me
Thereās no place in once upon a time
For the woman loving woman line
They say that we canāt be,
But I just wanna see me
If I had a wish on a star Iād be that princess with a princess by my side (princess by my side)
Sheād grab my hands, pull me fast through the castle, leave nothing behind
(Leave nothing behind, whoah)
But when the clock strikes midnight, sunset skies disappear
āCause without a pink, white, and orange sky we were never here
Iāve grown up
And Iāve learned to see (I have learned to see)
A magic kingdom
Running with two queens (running with two queens)
Thereās no place in once upon a time
For the woman loving woman line
They say that we canāt be,
But I just wanna see me
If I had a wish on a star Iād be that princess with a princess by my side (princess by my side)
Sheād grab my hands, pull me fast through the castle, leave nothing behind
(Leave nothing behind, leave nothing behind)
But when the clock strikes midnight, sunset skies disappear
āCause without a pink, white, and orange sky we were never here
Thereās no place in once upon a time
For woman loving woman lines
Say the kinds at home are fine
But in their heads youāve asked them to change
Ahhhhhh
A wish on a star
If I had a wish on a star Iād be that princess with a princess by my side (princess by my side)
Sheād grab my hands, pull me fast through the castle, leave nothing behind
(Leave nothing behind leave nothing behind)
But when the clock strikes midnight, sunset skies disappear
Come sit and watch stars replace sunlight
Might not get sunset on every night
But weāll paint a pink, white, and orange sky, we belong here
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9. |
Delia Jane - let that go
03:53
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When I kissed her
On New Years
Did you look away?
Normally with her I feel free
But when I knew your eyes were watching
My heart dropped
Iām not what you wanted
I guess Iām not what I saw for me either
Will you let that go with me
āCause I still hear your voice saying no no no no no no
Took me back to when I sat on my floor and sobbed
Wondering if youād come to my wedding
Would you sit in the front row
Wondering if youād show
Your friends pictures
When they ask how we are
Does everyone go through this?
āCause you feel so far (you feel so far)
A hundred psychics could tell Iām right
That I know who I am
But one word from you
Iām crumbling, I canāt stand
I canāt stand
Iām not what you wanted
I guess Iām not what I saw for me either
Will you let that go with me
āCause I still hear your voice saying no no no no no no
I feel like Iāve been lying
āCause no one knew
I was crying
No
Iām not what you wanted
I guess Iām not what I saw for me either
Will you let that go with me
āCause I still hear your voice saying no no no no no no
Iām not what you wanted
Will you let that go with me
Please
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I should be down at the mall with my friends
Talking about their boyfriends
Obsessing over how the world might end
Instead Iām glued to this thing in my hand
Sinking deeper into this quicksand
I never know when to turn it off, off, off
Can you pull me back up again
And Iāve been doing everything that I was told to do
To make myself look good for you
Iām sick and tired of lying to myself
Oh
Iām not what you pictured me to be
No itās not worth lying Iām just tried to be someone that Iām not trying to be
Be someone I wasnāt meant to be
Iām sorry, but I canāt change that
Iām not what you pictured me to
I should turn off my phone but Iām stuck scrolling again
I canāt not envy that girls on my screen
Theyāre who I want to be
I wish we could see the truth
Behind the mask
Show us the truth that
Itās not picture perfect, no
The facade is working
And Iāve been doing everything that I was told to do
To make myself look good for you
Iām sick and tired of lying to myself
Oh
Iām not what you pictured me to be
No itās not worth lying Iām just tried to be someone that Iām not trying to be
Be someone I wasnāt meant to be
Iām sorry, but I canāt change that
Iām not what you pictured me to be
Iām not what you pictured me to be
Iām not what you pictured me to...
Pick yourself off the ground
Act like you do when no one's around
We are not turning back now
I think itās time to put my phone downā¦.
āOkay, so something likeā¦ā
Iām not what you pictured me to be
No itās not worth lying Iām just tried to be someone that Iām not trying to
Be someone I wasnāt meant to be
Iām sorry, but I canāt change that
Iām not what you pictured me to
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